The Thin Line

Written by Kim L. Johnson, Founder of IAMMSWHW

Written by Kim Johnson

There is a thin line between living and suicide. I have probably written about this topic three times or more in some way or another, in previous blogs. In light of the recent death of the beautiful Cheslie Kryst, I am reminded of this thought. I remember a very stressful time in my life when I too contemplated suicide. The pain that I was feeling was so raw that I could barely breathe at times. I thought there was no way that I could explain the depth of that pain, nor would anyone understand it if I were to explain it to them anyway.

In any event, I have always heard the saying, especially during National Suicide Prevention month, that if you are feeling suicidal you should “reach out and tell someone,” But, the fact of the matter is, when I did reach out and explain ‘somewhat’ of what I was feeling, I felt like I was being judged and that no one quite got it or understood what I was feeling. 

Anyhow, I thank God for being in my life and for the angel He sent to help me. When I was at the lowest point in my life, and at what seemed, a crossroad, my cousin Sophia came to my rescue. Sophia reminded me of my relationship with God, and of what I already knew about trusting and having faith in Him during difficult times. Sometimes you need to be reminded. Also, I think that’s why it’s important for people to surround themselves with likeminded people that love the Lord, and you. These people can remind you of all the things you can’t recall about God when you are in pain and going through a rough patch. The thing Sophia did for me, mostly was pray and intercede. When she prayed, she did not stop until I was in a better place mentally.

Moreover, my brothers and sisters, there can be a thin line when trying to cope with suicidal thoughts, intense emotional pain, and that feeling that there is no way out, combined with the will to live. Fortunately for me, my relationship with God prevented me from doing the unthinkable. I thank God for intervening and for sending my Angel Sophia to stand in the gap for me and remind me there is hope and that God had a plan for my life.

Brothers and Sisters there is strength in your weakness! Don’t give up in the middle of your storm! “God will give you grace in your time of need, and it will be sufficient for you, even in the very worst of times” (Desiring God). praise God!

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